Monday, May 30, 2005

another kind of heartbreak

This morning it ended amicably. Two other people were there, one to mediate and the other another victim. They both did all the talking. I just sat there quiet and listened. So did she.

This morning I felt something i haven't felt in a while - heartbreak. Over the loss of a frienship and of a friend and that naive part of me that believed that friends didnt do this to each other.

This morning she accepted the consequences of what she did without a fight. She signed a document that legally binds her to pay us back. And we assured her that no criminal charges will be filed.

This morning, looking at her and trying to understand why she did what she did, I was reminded that before all this happened, a friendship was there and it felt real, at least to me. And I was reminded that I have also wronged and kupaled friends before and that, for some divine reason, the universe had forgiven me.

I truly truly hope that the universe will forgive her too. Cos i think i already have.

Friday, May 27, 2005


It's been a tough week. Been walking around since tuesday with a heavy heavy feeling. Been yo-yo-ing back and forth from being sad to being angry.

I discovered that my credit card was missing on tuesday. After i called hsbc, i found out that my card had been used and the amount totaled to roughly nine thousand bucks. We've investigated and all evidence point to one direction and it points to someone i consider my friend.

My friendship had just been compromised for a couple of bottles of lotion and a handbag.

I've never met anyone so cheap. so fucking galactically cheap.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Bo in a bottle

Never has the desire to pleasantville myself to a TV show been so strong as it was yesterday and is today.

Oh dear lord i think i truly love him.


If I could save time in a bottle
The first thing that I’d like to do
Is to save every day
Till eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you

If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
I’d save every day like a treasure and then,
Again, I would spend them with you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find them
I’ve looked around enough to know
That you’re the one I want to go
Through time with

If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty
Except for the memory
Of how they were answered by you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find them
I’ve looked around enough to know
That you’re the one I want to go
Through time with
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005


I've been checking my friendster account on a regular basis again. Kasi i've reconnected with some media folks, one of whom i had a really big crush on, and everytime i open my friendster now i really really hope that i have a friend request from him.

Pathetic. Absolutely.

But never. This blog is not about me. It is about this dude called richard. This richard i dont know. This richard i've never met or heard of before.

This richard who sent me a very very simple friendster message.

may i have ur cell#

Maybe he's too lazy to spell out a short word like Y-O-U-R or maybe he's too busy to waste time spelling out N-U-M-B-E-R, but i would have really appreciated it if he had at least the decency to end a question with a question mark. I mean its just, after all, one pindot on the keyboard.

I mean really. do men think women will respond to this? And really, does he think i would just give it out like that?

Wala man lang please.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

love me or leave me (embarassing??? songs)

I'm taking up joels call to owe up to my pop sensibilities.

Although, musically speaking, i have no other sensibilities than that of....

1. Pop! (dirty pop) / nsync - its the first song on the playlist when i borrow pats' ipod to go jogging every sunday. and yes, in true maite fashion, i sing along with it very very loudly for all the neighborhood to sing.

2. Groovy kind of love / phil collins - mahabang mahabang istorya. at kung u-umpisahan ko, iiyak lang ako. but whats not to like about a song that celebrates a groovy kind of love.

3. Have i told you lately that i love you / rod stewart - it feels my heart with gladness and it takes away my sadness, ease my troubles thats what this song does.

4. Ray of light and, by God!, everything madonna - if madonna says its cool to say zephyr, then zephyr here and zephyr there, zephyr zephyr everywhere.

5. Let's wait a while / janet jackson - at a time when kids were having sex way before they were ready, miss janet stood up and said 'hey, it's cool to wait before its too late'

6. Dirty diana / michael jackson - absolutely my ultimate favorite michael jackson song.

7. Honey / mariah carey - used to be my first song always when videoke-ing until i realized that there was no way in hell i could pull it off. i do think i can pull off those shoes though.

8. Boys / britney spears - i just have to have a britney here somewhere and this is my favorite.

9. Especially for you / kylie minogue and jason donovan - hee, im so sorry.

10. How did you know i needed someone like you in my life - Simply put, I LOVE GARY V.!!!!

Hey, i would also like to admit that i really secretly like sydney sheldon books. hee.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Tofu or not tofu

I personally think that i've been having too much of the damned thing. Dont get me wrong, my taste buds are not complaining (at least, not yet.) A tofu meal still makes me water despite the bad rap its been having.

But there it is. The bad rap.

My mother won't let up with the uric acid attack while mila (office groovy mom) said that it might actually have something to do with causing alzheimers. And since id rather not have the first and am terrified of the other, i've been trying to lay off tofu for a while.

Well... except for lunch today where i had that damned thing again.

Anyhoo, what is up with manila man?

What the fuck did we do to the sun to make it hate us so much?

Where the fuck does the breeze hang out these days? Definitely not around makati. And Im sure as hell its not in my house either. Will somebody please find out and book me the first flight out of here!!!

Okay, Next.

I seem to be bleeding from all possible areas. First off, its like the dam has broken down south and the overnights and the ultras are not doing its job very well. Second, my gums started bleeding while i was brushing my teeth last night. And Third, i had a nose bleed this morning, the first i've ever had in my life.

I normally wouldnt be worried except i was just rejected as a blood donor two weeks ago because apparently my rbc count was disturbingly low.

So where is all this blood coming from?

It's the heat i tell you. What else could be causing it? the tofu?

Tuesday, May 03, 2005


yup. thats really me. gained six pounds since i last worked out three weeks ago.

thats two pounds fatter every week i didnt gym.


In fairness to my fatter self. There were some attempts in the past three weeks to work out. Two to be exact. And only two because i've been busy as hell.


Anyhoo, i went to the gym last wednesday to really break some major sweat on the running machine. Eh, ang da-i kong socks! papano na yon? so, i just homeler myself in my workout clothes with pink old lady slippers.

Tapos today, I was really walking towards the gym na talaga when, all of a sudden, as if i had no control over my fatter feet, i turned around and headed back to the office. And like a woman in trance with absolutely no control over her actions, i called my mother and asked her to pick me up right away.

Tomorrow talaga i promise to work out na.



Thats me.

And according to a website in dire need of an editor who actually speaks english, this is who i am.

She likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality. She is weak and sensitive when it's come to "Love". She can cry if her best friend is breaking up, and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boy friend who is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at all. You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in love. More or less it will be in Pisces woman. She loves small animal and gifted in training animals.

She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature. Even she has a good sixth senses, she can not pick or foreseen her own choice of lover. She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one night stand guy.

She likes to buy and pick her own cloths. She likes to dress cute and be cute. Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has a nice skin.

Her hands and feet are small and soft. Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them. She is a hot lady that everyone wants her. Whether she has a man in her life or not , she will never try to over powered any man. It's not even in her

She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way. She is an easy going person, so being with her is easy. She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy. She knows how to please and how to comfort a man.

If something is wrong, she will try to make other people belief that it's must be because of someone else, not because of her love one. She will not push her man to be ambition but to make him feel like he should be happy with the way he is now. She is happy with you for what you are now.

A Pisces woman , if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and it will make her a very unhappy person. She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself. She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and so vulnerable to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills). She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take. If you love her , then hold her tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do next.

A complex character. You may think she is a shy innocent type and can not hurt anyone, then you are wrong. You might think she is a fragile person who needs protection, wrong again. She has been through a lot, a tough cookie. She is a dreamer and love the word "Love", so she is the type who will buy gift for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or an anniversary even for someone who she does not know so well.

Be very careful if fall in love with Pisces woman. She can be a total different person before and after. She can be an angle before and later a witch, but everyone is not perfect, right? She will be soft and gentle most of the time, so not to worry. She is emotional and extremely sensitive when she frequently got hurt. She is the type who can cry her heart out.

She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone. She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she can hide that feeling by being stubborn. She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy. She does not like to follow any fixed rules. She can be a good housewife if you know how
to handle her.

Many men will ask to marry her because she is a 100% woman. If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angles.