I can’t believe it’s been 6 years. Sometimes it feels longer, most times it
feels shorter, but 6 years just doesn’t seem right. I don’t think any number will actually ever
feel right. Like its hard to accept how
one number can possibly measure all that was lost.
Heniway.
So you have an apo now.
I’m watching her sleep as I type this and I can’t help but feel sad that
she will never know what its like to have a lolo. Drach lost his dad early too so nothing from
that side either. The lolas are amazing
to be sure –mama is absolutely phenomenal - but lolos are great for little
girls to have. And I imagine you would
have made a phenomenal one too.
I made a promise to myself the day I found out I was
pregnant. I said that I was going to
make sure that my child would know who her grandfather was. So I’ve made a mental note of all the stories
that I want to share with her so she will know how funny, silly, honourable and,
well, deaf you were. Hahaha.
Anyway, I love you and I miss you terribly. And I hope
that you are proud of the kind of parent I am turning out to be.