Thursday, August 25, 2005


Despite the blatant lack of that ONE man in my life, I have to say that I’ve been pretty blessed with the men that surround me everyday. This was my epiphany last night. So this morning, I would like to celebrate these men who are slowly restoring my faith in the non-scumness of their gender.

My family;

1. My daddy

who, apparently, has been getting computer lessons from my sister and has been building his “papa” folder on itunes on his own. Last Sunday, I checked what my pop had on his playlist. And there, hidden amidst the expected gypsy kings and Santana collection, was the makabagbagdaming

No no no no
Don’t phunk with my heart

Apparently, my daddy is big big fan of this black eyed peas hit.

2. Bobby

Why I don’t watch more of his gigs is a mystery to me. Ahhhh… maybe it has something to do with the fact that I don’t have a car noh?

Anyhoo, he’s really really good. And he sings “Mary had a little lamb” with so much soul it makes me want to erase the kiddie version from the memory of the world.

3. Pats

I’ve always thought that he was the most generous among us cos he always brings home food and stuff for us.

When I got home the other night at 2 in the morning, I found his key to our front door resting in the keyhole of our front door. You know, to make it easier for the thieves to rob us. That’s how generous he is eh.

4. Michael

Who wakes up in the middle of the night to make kumut pats. Who will greet me with the biggest smile on his face everytime I go home. He’s really an angel. And he just turned 24 yesterday.

God I love him so much.

My chums; (in alphabetical order)

1. Adi

If I had to pick a favorite – he would be it. I have to say, his sarcastic funnyness, combined with impeccable, adorable delivery, never fails to bring the house down! Well, mine and tracy’s houses anyway.

I read somewhere one time that you know you’re with a real friend when you can spend a long time with them without saying a word and leave feeling like you’ve just had the best conversation of your life.

Adi is one of the few peeps that make me feel that way.

2. Bachii

For helping me appreciate the beauty in normalcy.
For making me realize that fun times aren’t lost in systems analysts who make the most dependable friends.
And, most importantly,
For introducing curry to my eggs.

I will be perpetually grateful.

3. Drach

Who, I just realized yesterday, I can rely on for serious discussions about life and such at odd times. And who expands my vocabulary through his random usage of big words like verisimilitude and picaresque.

4. Leoy

Who insists on calling me at the busiest of hours to make me listen to songs that he “composed.” Who gives the best mind-blowing lightshows on earth. Who will always be, despite my repeated public denial, my handsomest friend.

5. Niv

Who is probably the most grounded man I know and who has the amazing gift of making it seem that happiness can be so effortlessly achieved.


1. My boss who is my very own dark angel.
2. My assistant who is the newest soul on the block.
3. Ryan E. – hahaahahahahahaahahahahahhahaah! No seriously, ryan e. just for being so fucking gorgeous.

Monday, August 22, 2005

im really a gaya gaya

Seven things that scare you:

1. losing my teeth
2. alzheimers
3. osteoporosis
4. outliving my family
5. ghostlers
6. deathler
7. being forgotten as soon as i leave the room or die

Seven things you like the most:

1. Rainy days
2. a tall cold glass of fresh milk
3. laughing
4. sweating
5. good hair days
5. big dogs
6. small dogs
7. forehead kisses

Seven important things in your room:

1. my sister
2. my books
3. my banyo
4. sesame street collection
5. my letter box
6. pictures
7. my turtlenecks

Seven random facts about you:

1. I am as hairy as a baboon.
2. I have the memory of dory.
3. I can live on starch alone.
4. I can make uu at will.
5. There's always a party inside my head.
6. My hips are bigger than manhattan.
7. I make a fabulous rhum cake

Seven things you plan to do before you die:

1. sicily, sorento, venice, florence, barcelona, egypt
2. bungee jump
3. fuck on a motorcycle
4. sex with a chick (curiousity more than preference)
5. go on a cruise with my family
6. write a book or a script
7. eat meat again

Seven things you can do:

1. lie outrageously
2. host childrens party
3. a jab, straight and left hook combo
4. apparently, i can draw ambo and monster
5. find order in chaos
6. organize fun indoor games
7. stuff

Seven things you can't do:

1. bluff
2. swim
3. ride a bike
4. give up carbs
5. put on blush properly
6. keep my desk organized
7. stuff

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:

1. men who look, smell, feel and act like men (androginity is not my thing)
2. funny! fanny! phanny!
3. wit wit witty
4. i love men who sweat yummily
5. can cook
6. can sing or dance or both
7. masarap kumain

Seven things you say the most:

1. Gads
2. I'm so busog!!!
3. I'm so gutom!!!
4. Hay
5. That's true
6. Ulol!
7. I'm so fat talaga!

Seven celeb crushes (local or foreign)

1. Bo Bice
2. Colin firth
3. Hugh Grant
4. Reynaldo Gianechinni (that yummy yummy man i posted two or three blogs down)
5. Piolo Pascual
6. Raymond Bagatsing
7. Angelina Jolie

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Blame it on the vowel

(pasensya na. tao lang)

The problem with the vowel is that it forces you into realizations that beat self-delusion to a pulp. And so you find yourself alone in the living room, having a conversation with a doogie on a monday night.

I've pretty much accepted the possiblity that i will probably end up alone. I'm really okay na with that.

But what i've come to realize on that blasted monday night is that no matter how equipped i am to handle the bigger 'stuff', it's really the small things that break me.

- Like not having someone to watch a stupid movie with because they have no other choice but to keep me company.

- Or not having someone to lounge around the house with on a rainy sunday afternoon.

- Or those silly private jokes that no one else understands and appreciates.

- Or someone whose voice suddenly springs to life when they get your call at 3 in the morning just to say hi.

- Or text messages that mean nothing ang everything at the same time.

Yan. The small things. Silent but deadly.

Friday, August 12, 2005


it's 4am and im still here with no sign of work ending really soon. which means one of two things;

1. i dont have time na talaga to go home so i will have to either go to jennis or 719 to take a quick nap before i have to be back here at 9 tomorrow. ay, later pala. 719 is closer but jenni's is priority because she has a heater. it really depends right now on the person who's gonna drop me off.

this also means that pats will have to drop off my clothes tomorrow. ay, later pala.

hassle pare.

2. Or - i really wont leave nalang this office talaga and just go to the gym to take a bath tomorrow. ay, later pala.

But really as of this point, i just really want to make u.u. naman.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

I am a gaya-gaya :-)

From chockwit to duskwatcher to me.

Write 15 statements anonymous to people on your friends list and then pick 5 people to do this as well.

- You make me prouder everyday.

- I love you more than your momma.

- Someday, when you're ready, i will hold your hand and watch regine concerts with you.

- Ika nga ng kanta "And I'm doing just fine. Getting along very well...."

- You seriously deserve someone better. like me :)

- I would gladly be an old maid if you'll be one with me.

- You will find someone fabulous to love and who will love you fabulously.

- It's really up to you. Eitherway, you'll have to find happiness in the choices you make.

- Enough. Enough now.

- You should try to make her happier. She deserves to be happier.

- The key to a more relaxed life is to loosen your bra straps :)

- You're truly my favorite person in the whole wide world miski you repeatedly lied to me before. mwah.

- Next to my mother, you are my 'contact in case of emergency' person and i love you to bits.

- I miss you naman eh.

- It gets better. I promise :)


it's really up to you.

Monday, August 08, 2005

oooh.. me too. me too.

You are Coraline! You are quirky, strange, and
charming. Some people may find you a little
alarming and not always get you... But they can
piss off, right? You are the kind of person who
always needs to be entertained, otherwise you
get uncomfortable. You probably still enjoy
everything you did when you were little, such
as childrens books and Disney movies. Youre fun
to be around and are usually the life of the

*~Which Neil Gaiman book are you?~*
brought to you by Quizilla

Which Trainspotting Character Are You?

thanks therese. i now know myself better because of you :)

Thursday, August 04, 2005


Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Take the quiz: "Which Dead Rock Star Are You?"

Jeff Buckley
You are Jeff Buckley! You're influential to many young and old, and very talented. You have charisma and grace that sets you a part from many. You are beautiful! Oh, he died in 1997 from a drug-induced drowning in the Mississippi River.

my newest mantra

okay its not exactly new. i've said it before but i never got around to practicing it. but yesterday i realized after i had two bites of that stupid honey cake after snarfing an entire bag of flaming hot cheetos that most of the stuff i ingest aint worth ingesting at all.

so, from this day on, as God is my witness, i promise to never again, for as long as i can help it, eat mediocre food and that every pound and every inch that i gain will be worth gaining.