Thursday, March 30, 2006


a very muffled but still quite audible screech escaped me when i saw him last night. a screech that lasted a good ten seconds.

i wanted to stop in front of him and say "i'm just a girl standing in front of a boy asking him to love her. so choose me. love me. marry me." but i was fully aware that not even my charms can straighten this road.

but it was the highlight of my day. actually, it was the highlight of my month.

so, in the immortal words of a then-unknown tony gonzaga.


Wednesday, March 29, 2006

TUESDAY: NEW FRIENDS (Thank You Universe series)

at my age, new friends come in trickles. maybe its because at some point i just got tired of having to introduce who i am again to someone new and have to explain why i dont drive, or why i dont have savings, or why i dont have a boyfriend. maybe its because at my age, i just dont want to waste my time with small talk and idle chit chat that may or may not lead to geniune friendships. maybe its because i think i already have all the the friends that i need and have no time or no room for more.

but in the past year, i have to say that i made a number of new, good friends that i would like to invite to be part of my wedding entourage.

IRENE - who could possibly be, i shit you not, funnier than me.
CARMEN - who, just like sally, thinks she's low maintenance when she's actually high maintenance. very high maintenance. and that is perfectly okay.
TIM - absolutely the nicest and most grounded man i've ever met. probably one of the hottest too.
INGRID and JENNY - the only time i truly enjoyed shopping was when i did it with these two.
MAREX - just because.
TOVE - the best roommate ever.

Friday, March 24, 2006


appreciation is a good thing. so everyday i will be thankful for something in this world.

it started last friday and i made a mental note of the things that i was grateful for from then till yesterday.


for this one, i will be makata about it.

Ako ay nagpapasalamat
sa dakilang monggo
na ubod ng sarap
ginataan man o guisado
gilingin mo man at balutin
mala hopia ng eng bi tin
ang mongo ay isang very
good source of protein


I spent the weekend in tagaytay with CISV peeps for staff training. Ang sarap ng hindi imperyeno ang init.


On good days, i truly believe that what we do will make a difference someday.

On bad days, i've met a whole bunch of incredibly funny and smart people who will sing the moose song with me.

Eitherway, CISV is a win-win come rain or come shine.


YM is really one of the best things in the world. And stealth settings is a big factor why.

a general state of blah

don't get me wrong. i'm not complaining. im just saying it as it is - my life, for the past month, birthday hoopla and all, is in a general state of limbo. Neither here nor there. Not bad but not good. Not sad but not happy. Not desperately boring but not terribly exciting either.

i am not a passionate person. again not a complaint, just a fact. and i think this is not the first time i've said this here. i have this horrible ability to detach myself from situations or emotions or even people. i'm not quite sure anymore if i still do it consciously or if, because of years of training, i've just naturally evolved into this person who automatically shuts off that part of her brain that allows herself to feel more than okay for something.

it would be nice to be excited about something for real. to be inspired for real. to be driven for real. to feel for real. even if it means being disappointed for real. or being rejected for real.

hmmmm... should i change the title of this blog to "for real."